I've long identified as someone who faces at times pretty extreme Imposter Syndrome. It was incredibly common at .org, but it's something I've felt throughout my whole career.
Two recent events have caused me to change my understanding of my own brushes with Imposter Syndrome and shed that self-identity from my conscience (or at least start trying to):
1. I was diagnosed with Adult ADHD and started medication
2. I read about and understood a new term: Toxic Shame
The two are quite intertwined. I've struggled with the feeling that I didn't belong for most of my life. Like there was something so different or weird about me, not my choices, not my actions, but just who I am, and especially how my brain works. Finally getting over my reluctance to consider ADHD, I now understand there's nothing wrong with me, I'm just wired differently.
But the real breakthrough was coming to understand that my own, at time self-deprecating, joking about Imposter Syndrome was really just another way of saying I was suffering from Toxic Shame.
So what is Toxic Shame? First, both guilt and shame are normal emotions. We all feel them. The distinction is nuanced, but I see guilt as more about your internal ethics where shame is more about external morality or the perception of others. Both can be good things to feel. When we do something wrong, they motivate us to do better.
Toxic Shame is when shame becomes a demotivating force, when that feeling starts to become part of your identity like there's something fundamentally flawed about you.
Here's a hint, there's not anything wrong with you ;) Keep an eye out for that toxic shame self talk though. Confront it. You might discover you're capable of way more than you ever imagined!
Hence, I no longer identify as someone with Imposter Syndrome. Realizing it was actually Toxic Shame helped me see it less as a joke and more as a barrier to overcome.
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