Luckiest Girl Alive Quotes

“Moving on doesn’t mean you don’t talk about it. Or hurt about it. It’s always going to hurt,”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“All my life, I’ve found it difficult to advocate for myself, to ask for what I want. I fear burdening people so much.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“My favorite strategy is to feign inferiority and encourage my enemy’s arrogance.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Sometimes I feel like a windup doll, like I have to reach behind and turn my golden key to produce a greeting, a laugh, whatever the socially acceptable reaction should be.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“There is something about seeing someone from behind, something about the way people walk away, that I've always found unnervingly intimate. Maybe it's because the back of the body isn't on guard the way the front is - the slouch of the shoulders and the flex in the back muscles, that's the most honest you'll ever see a person.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“But faith doesn’t mean that to me anymore. Now it means someone seeing something in you that you don’t, and not giving up until you see it too.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“By the end of it all I just assumed no one ever told the truth, and that was when I started lying too.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“It was one of those awful moments where you have no control over your reaction, when the pain is too exposed to hide.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I thought that by twenty-eight I could stop trying to prove myself and relax already. But this fight just gets bloodier with age.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“This is Luke’s favorite thing to say about me, to remind me. I’m a survivor. It’s the finality of the word that bothers me, its assuming implication. Survivors should move on. Should wear white wedding dresses and carry peonies down the aisle and overcome, rather than dwell in a past that can’t be altered. The word dismisses something I cannot, will not, dismiss.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“That would be the most surprising lesson I’d learn at Bradley: You only scream when you’re finally safe.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“At one point I was climbing off the bus and I bumped into a woman in a crisp black blazer and pointy, witchy shoes. She had a bulky cell phone pressed against her ear and a black bag with gold Prada lettering hooked around her wrist. I was a long ways off from worshiping at the Céline, Chloé, or Goyard thrones, but I certainly recognized Prada. “Sorry,” I said, and took a step away from her. She nodded at me briskly but never stopped speaking into her phone, “The samples need to be there by Friday.” As her heels snapped away on the pavement, I thought, There is no way that woman can ever get hurt. She had more important things to worry about than whether or not she would have to eat lunch alone. The samples had to arrive by Friday. And as I thought about all the other things that must make up her busy, important life, the cocktail parties and the sessions with the personal trainer and the shopping for crisp, Egyptian cotton sheets, there it started, my concrete and skyscraper wanderlust. I saw how there was a protection in success, and success was defined by threatening the minion on the other end of a cell phone, expensive pumps terrorizing the city, people stepping out of your way simply because you looked like you had more important places to be than they did. Somewhere along the way, a man got tangled up in this definition too. I just had to get to that, I decided, and no one could hurt me again.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Maybe he wouldn’t fear my bite, my kookiness, maybe he’d get past my thorny bristles to see there is sweetness here. Would understand that moving on doesn’t mean never talking about it, never crying about it.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“was one of those awful moments where you have no control over your reaction, when the pain is too exposed to hide.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Bickering. It's so much uglier than a heated, dish-smashing fight, isn't it?”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“But I needed to build up my loneliness tolerance, was all. The loneliness became like a friend, my constant companion. I could depend on it, and only it.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Education, travel, culture—this is what any pennies pinched should be used for, never flashy cars, loud logos, or personal maintenance.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“You only scream when you’re finally safe.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“You have to know that no matter what they say about you, all that matters is what you know about yourself here.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I told Luke about that night at a time when he was enamored with me, which is the only time you should ever tell anyone something shameful about yourself—when a person is mad enough about you that disgrace is endearing.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I should do three things every day, but instead I sit, paralyzed in front of my computer, beating myself up for not doing three things every day like I promised myself I would. I’ve determined this is more time-consuming and stressful than actually doing the three goddamn things a day, and, therefore, I’m entitled to my fury.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“It’s okay to be insufferable as long as you’re aware that you’re being insufferable. At least that’s how I justified it to myself.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I want to be a writer, which sounds so stupid and aspirational, like, 'I want to be an astronaut!”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Taste, I had yet to learn, was the delicate balance between expensive and unassuming.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“That would be the most surprising lesson I'd learn... You only scream when you're finally safe.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I came to the conclusion that if a woman of the cloth could be so sure she was going to heaven despite being such a massive asshole, God must be more lenient than I'd been led to believe.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Hemingway used to write an ending to his novel only to delete it, asserting that it made the story stronger because the reader would always be able to intuit the ghost of that final, incorporeal passage.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Knowing that when you’re gone the grind will go on. No one is special enough to stop it.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“Nothing sadder than the adolescent rite of passage to have sex before understanding what sexy is.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive

“I feel anger and hatred and frustration and sadness like they’re physical fabrics. This one’s silk, this one’s velvet, this one’s crisp cotton. But I couldn’t tell you what the texture of loving Luke is anymore.”
― Jessica Knoll, Luckiest Girl Alive