Ariana Grande’s mom didn’t know if her daughter would ever perform again following the terrorist attack on her Manchester concert in 2017, given the PTSD from which Grande was suffering.
“When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe,” Grande told Elle magazine. “I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down.”
The 25-year-old singer “cried endlessly and barely spoke for two days” until she woke up her mom, Joan Grande, in the middle of the night with an idea.
As Joan recalled, “It was 2 or 3 in the morning; she crawled into bed and said, ‘Mom, let’s be honest, I’m never not going to sing again. But I’m not going to sing again until I sing in Manchester first.'”
Although the “No Tears Left to Cry” songstress successfully hosted the One Love Manchester charity concert and has moved forward after the tragedy, she’ll forever be affected.
“It’s happened before, and it’ll happen again. It makes you sad, you think about it for a little, and then people move on,” she shared. “But experiencing something like that firsthand, you think of everything differently.
“Everything is different.”
Last week, Grande came to the defense of her comedian fiancé, Pete Davidson, after a joke he made referring to the Manchester bombing resurfaced. He reportedly said during a set that he realized just how famous Grande was because “Britney Spears didn’t have a terrorist attack at her concert.”
Grande said she disagreed with the joke but noted that “we all deal with trauma differently.” “I of course didn’t find it funny. it was months ago & his intention wasn’t/ is never malicious but it was unfortunate,” she tweeted.