Yeah, mm
[Verse 1]
Same bar, same street
I'm twenty but I still feel like fifteen, oh-oh
Same fears, same dreams
Still tryna get my brother to like me, mmm
You said that I always seem to land on my feet
But I got problems hangin' like a chain 'round my neck
Tryin' but I'm barely seein' past twenty-three
No, best of me, right now, is lookin' a lot like a mess
[Chorus]
I thought I had my shit together
Can't lie, the pills are lookin' temptin', oh-oh
I thought that I was gettin' better
No, I got better at pretendin', oh-oh
[Post-Chorus]
Ah
Ah-ah
[Verse 2]
Old friends, downtown
They didn't like me then and don't like me now
I'm drunk, oh, wow
All my habits came back around
"I'll figure it out," that's what I say
Figure it out and take a break
I'll figure it out, maybe one day
I'll finally get my shit together
Can't lie, the pills are lookin' temptin', oh-oh
I thought that I was gettin' better
No, I got better at pretendin', oh-oh
[Post-Chorus]
Ah
Ah-ah
Ah
Ah-ah
[Bridge]
And I did it again, I'm a creature of habit
The moment's gone, but I'm still tryna catch it
Everyone left and I never got past it
Never got past it
[Outro]
Same bar, same street
I'm twenty but I still feel like fifteen
About
Titled after her home city, “calgary” sees McRae doubt her future, and wonders if she will ever get to where she wants to be in her life. Over a soft, repeated guitar melody, her vulnerability shines through, as she starts to contemplate whether she will ever change, even looking to pills as an answer, labelling herself as a “creature of habit”.
McRae ends the track how it started, with her feeling like a child, at home in a place where she feels comfortable.
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When I was younger, my number one thing that I wanted to do was move out of Calgary and move to LA. Now that I’m getting a little older, I’m realising how much I appreciate the town that I came from. A lot of this album takes inspiration from my Canadian roots, especially with the visuals and the music videos. It shows where I’m from and what I’ve grown up watching and listening to and going through. “calgary” was actually written when I had gone home in the summertime and I was with all my friends. The second I get home I feel like I go back to my 15-year-old self. I can have so much growth and I can go through so many things in my life and I can get back home and feel exactly how I felt in grade 10. It talks about my brother, it talks about my family, talks about my friends from middle school, and I’ve never talked about a concept like this before because these feelings were suppressed.
— via Apple Music
- 1.cut my hair
- 2.greedy
- 5.grave
- 6.stay done
- 7.exes
- 9.calgary
- 10.messier
- 11.think later
- 13.want that too